One
thing I have to say I am not proud of myself for is my inability to
handle being still. I do not like the idea of being in a place my
husband refers to as Limbo. It seems we know what our choice is.
However we are leaving the final announcement until Monday the 19th.
This has meant for me nights of no sleep, and people getting stressed as I make plans that to them seam to be jumping the gun. However it is my coping mechanism. While other people have to move in their personal space, or have to have a clean kitchen before going to bed, I have to have a plan. I have to be able to map out the near and possible distant future out in my head.
This change is one that almost feels like returning to my old path. But what bothers me is my inability to set things in motion. We are waiting for one last event before we start the gears moving. So like a plane on the runway, we are fueled and have a flight plan. All we are waiting on is for the tower to relay one final bit of information to the Pilate.
It use my time doing research for future projects, and continuing my study into fields I have wanted to expand. Along with make connections with people that may be useful to know in the near future. Though I am still more then ready to have the outcome of all of this be 100%.
This has meant for me nights of no sleep, and people getting stressed as I make plans that to them seam to be jumping the gun. However it is my coping mechanism. While other people have to move in their personal space, or have to have a clean kitchen before going to bed, I have to have a plan. I have to be able to map out the near and possible distant future out in my head.
This change is one that almost feels like returning to my old path. But what bothers me is my inability to set things in motion. We are waiting for one last event before we start the gears moving. So like a plane on the runway, we are fueled and have a flight plan. All we are waiting on is for the tower to relay one final bit of information to the Pilate.
It use my time doing research for future projects, and continuing my study into fields I have wanted to expand. Along with make connections with people that may be useful to know in the near future. Though I am still more then ready to have the outcome of all of this be 100%.
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